I am such a huge time waster.  It’s really bad.  I live in a house without cable television, and without video games from the last decade, but I cannot get a thing done.

 

It’s a AWFUL feeling and I hate it.  Is it ADD? Is it just apathy and laziness?  I don’t know.  I don’t want to put out the effort to be more productive.  I could try but I would hate it.  

 

God, I am worthless without your direction.  See I have no passion for school because I am only occupying a seat there, not learning from it.  As of now I exist at CSU to lead a worship team that leads kids from my age group in the worship of our Savior King, Jesus.  That’s fantastic and I love it, but that’s not the original goal at all.  Eventually I will get some kind of degree from the University, but as of now I am worthless here!  God give me a vision?  You led me here, you gave me a job here, a house here, a band here, and a hundred friends here.  I love it here.  But the original reason for my being here was to get an education and eventually a degree.  What happened to that?  Why don’t I even care about that anymore?  This is really hard for me.

 

Without vision I perish, but have it as you will.

 

K thanks.